How you do anything is how you do everything
I’ve been consistently worked out in the gym for almost two years. It seems I usually have short passion in many things. I easily get bored with old regular routines and fall in love with new ones. However, being working out changed and inspired me a lot. Still like change, but it makes me”stably and positively change”.
The reason I began to work out was so simple: research found people who work out generally look younger than people who don’t work out. I’m afraid of getting old, so I work out. It’s not easy in the beginning, when the amount of training made me overwhelming, my minds only read one thing to hold up, that is: I don’t want to lose. I don’t want to be weak especially when other people could do it but I couldn’t. I didn’t allow the shame. Soon, I could handle most of training for 3 hours with ease. However, since I force myself so much, my body got hyper extension and my shoulder dislocated twice in two weeks. My doctor warns me that I couldn’t do that much exercise for years, otherwise ligamentous laxity would cause habitual dislocation on my shoulder. I was scared and cried sometimes because I’m afraid I couldn’t work out anymore.
Finally, I challenged the doctor’s words; I hate stop doing something I like because of fear. I kept working out but was more careful in terms of working out my shoulder. I was worried sometimes by doing that; meanwhile, I found joy; release pressure; conquer my body through work out, I felt much more myself when I work out. I’ve been challenging and changing myself, I felt more confident, brave and outgoing than before. I still didn’t want to lose, but I learned to enjoy a lot with what I was doing. Fortunately my shoulder has been adapted well.
Last weekend I was in a dance rehearsal, my teacher briefed us the whole performance story; pictured the characters and costumes. The first time I know how a real dancer (stage director) work. The way he described the scenes; how the lights would change and in which section to interact with the audience. He inquired our opinions in terms of certain gesture, it’s very respectful and open-minded. It seemed I could see the whole picture on the stage and how everybody does his/her work. He said one thing amazed me: ” Don’t worry about the crappy, when it’s on the stage, I can sell anything.” I do see how a creative contributes his passion and confidence to his work. I do have a lot to learn.
Recall the past two years’ working out process, I realize that when a person is working out, the strongest one gets sculptured is not her body, but the minds. Many people say there is no strongest place in any subject, but I believe it does have, including the so-called design area. A strongest heart supports you to keep standing up and facing front without fear.
